On any given day, when I devote time to behind-the-scenes work; to reading, writing, prioritising, preparing and correspondence I feel my productivity typically has this flow:
Firstly, there is almost always muddle. It takes a while to settle. My mind races with hundreds of options and starting on any one of them eludes me. It feels hard to get past the muddle but then…
…at some point, normally after coffee, a clearly written to-do list, a cup of tea and other delaying tactics, there is a middle. When in the middle, it appears as though I am most fruitful – I’m often not aware of the difference at the time but looking back a lot seems to have been achieved. Work seems to be at its most productive in the middle but...
…inevitably, at some later point, the middle gives way to a different muddle, a fatigue muddle perhaps, where less is seemingly done – and the yet there is still more that should be done. At these muddle times I miss the middle!
What I am learning is that our God is with me in the muddle before the middle and muddle after the middle as well as the middle.
Perhaps the middle is not the most fruitful.
Perhaps the middle needs the company of the muddle either side.
Perhaps it is just that muddle-middle-muddle is the deal for me and God is Lord of all it.
So if you are reading this, purely as distraction, because you find yourself in a muddle, welcome! God is here too.